...but this all has certainly been already… a fit of raving déjà vu or what?. by the bye, is the noun of feminine or masculine gender?. depends on the inquirer's orientation… which one would be to our liking?. horsing with a neutral would be most disturbing, you know, not knowing where to, and how, and what… don’t you bother, love comes with time… but if it hurts then what?. have a shoot at whining...

...but all of this has most definitely been... this complete darkness is way too familiar… “darkness” is feminine in Russian if it makes it easier for you, d’you feel relieved?. can’t tell for sure... after that previous darkness the head was aching awfully… never get drunk over the limits… and which part of it was then the sorest spot?. the back of the head… so it was not migraine then...

...yes! i remember now!. i have been in this here darkness and packed as tightly as right now… because everything comes back to its beginnings and in the end of your way you get into the sperm squirt from your dad’s dick shaking in your mom’s vagina… you’re fucking unnormative all over your damn head, this will blow up to hell even 18+… 'cause what has been will be again, what has been done will be done again...

truly, truly tell I unto y'all!. all’s definitely that very way and exactly so was I not able to stretch my legs out and this here lid above and I all crammed and confined inside this too tight Pe... Pec… Peccy?.

To use their sense of feel, the fingers pass thru thick yet imperceptible darkness until they met invisible yet palpable hardness of calcium carbonate in the so familiar concave wall. Yes, it's her, it’s Peccy. Here is the unmistakable cleavage between her two valves, yes, that lovely shallow split, not even a pinkie goes any deeper, the fucking bitch squeezes them too tight and there’s no space for doubting it any more – it’s nothing else but a déjà vu!

O? But what if he had never left it then and just fallen asleep, exhausted? What if banging the back of your head against something hard works as some sleeping pills, eh? Three hearty bangs are equal to a couple of Zolpidem. Looking for Triazolam? Keep banging on. Doral is effing painful yet that way you earn a sound sleep for at least 8 hours...

shut up, buddy! banging for a living is prostitution!. ha! as if digging a hole or sweating at a conveyor line is not the same? don’t they sell their body? ain’t they doing the routine job that makes them wanna puke?. shut up! we’re honest law-abiding sellers of our bodies! not a single article in the criminal code discourage our trade!. and, please, stop entering slippery grounds they can block your account, you do know...

The freaked out fingers recoiled back to the beard. Wa-ait! But where’s the blunderbuss?

The blunderbuss is there no more. Instead they feel some woolen cloth, rather thick yet not drape, maybe, rep, it’s hard to say in the darkness.

The hair is also gone. Well, not completely but pretty shorter because there’s not a chance to get an upper hand in a tiff with Maya…

stop!. but who’s Maya?. and more details on this point, please...

Whoa, man! Easy! Easy! We are not rolling out any Kama Sutra here… just use some mnemotechnic knock up… no! hands off! draw your hands back, I tell you!.

There sounds a groan in the darkness, maybe, two… an ill-articulated, ’o! Maya! what a slut you are! ah! yeah! wow-ow!’

Seems like amnesia has withdrawn about that neck of the woods...

Yes, he phases it out while there again is arising the same question: who am I and where from?

And one more pops up too, a bigger one – how to get back to Maya?

Think, buddy! think… fuck “who” it can wait, the shortcut to Maya lies thru “where from?”...

Think, Nobodya! Do think!

What the feck!. who’s Nobodya?

aargh!. it’s real hard to do business with you!. don’t you know English? or never seen that western with Henry Fonda? damn!

A London tavern’s interior springs up in the memory… low ceiling, jittery illumination by the torches in the walls… Chris stretched out on the floor… so funny pants on him, skin tight… crumpled mesentery folds around his young neck sprayed with blood… the dagger handle sticking out from the forehead above his right eye… the control hit… no more poems, rhymer… but he was also a fink, eh?. as if there ever was someone who was not, okay, cut it out.. or else the audience would boo at being bored of... just remember – anything would pass away besides the Muses that come to visit… now, take two at beat one...

Chris on the floor… the veins in the whites of his eyes getting paler… Don’s bodyguard nearing with his handgun… and this very moment I catch on the meaning of the parting words by Chris – “escape!” that button in the left upper corner of the keyboard… the way of exodus, last hope when you hang up in no way out, cornered and stuck where it gives no loophole… Esc button or else that one, wide one, press it for 5 seconds and – your monitor’s black, game over, sucker...

The stream of vehicles… it cannot stop me… whistle of the bullets piercing my beard… fuck it!. ‘Escape!’… the wall darting like a locomotive towards me… ESCAPE!!!

...The tight, pitch black darkness filled with the hollow beating of the heart—tah-da! tah-da!—which has been right now dashing within the runner’s body. But how can be possible all that? Don’t ask and just believe – There is no Might and Power but by Mnemotechnic the Great and Omnipotent and Adrenaline is the Prophet of It.

Fuck! I’ve really stepped into! It’s so tight in here and I wanna pee so what am I to do? To recollect the pampers of my childhood? But were there pampers? Were there pampers? When even you do not know if your mommy had money-money for pampers or if there was any mommy at all or you were just another foundling in a refugees camp?

Yet it is of no importance... for the time being... The task is to understand why…

...no one will ever understand why because the question “why?” has no answer. Well, just for the record, it has, however, not one but infinity power infinity, you know, and anything at all can be the reason for anything at all, even absence of a nail in a smithy to shod a hoof so chew a banana and relax or, if you wish, I can treat you to an apple, huh?. do have a look, so ripe and juicy! — Ѽ...

You? Again at your damn tricks? When or where will I get rid of you?. There are heaps of other shells, not enough for you? Go and hiss there your serpentine lullaby…

...you have to open this one, first off, before to say “Get out!”, you, sclerotic one… and be quick too not to be wakened up by a yell outside “Get out, Lazarus!”

But why-why-why had no one vehicle run him over? They were just sliding thru him… Or was it he to slide thru the car interiors and their drivers? And possibly thru the passengers too?.

Why did the bullets fly from his plexus with welcoming “phew-phew!” without setting his beard on fire? Not even combing it for that matter? Such things cannot happen, right?

There’s something not there… yes, really amiss… nothing but some creepy virtuality… but who?. Scurrying autos, them those bullets or he himself?. Who was virtual?. Or—and here enters the most horrible—all of them at once?.

...well, well, well, welcome back again... copy-pasting Matrix season 7, eh?. shame on you, Ekibastuzenko! plagiarizing Poles?. while having such a good mom who sings about the revolution locomotive… oops!.

A-ha! Have blurted it out? You Prince of Darkness!

Now I know who I am – Inokenty, Kenty, Kesha-sunny and nothing of that Western Nobodya!

With hectic acceleration revved his thoughts shooting ever faster like a squirrel in the wheel in his cage…

I’ve got the squirrel syndrome?

...hold on, not everything at once yet nobody bypasses the inevitable...

And in the rumble of the squirrel’s plaything’s rolling rotor there grows and widens new rhythm over the mariana trenches of dismay, some full of hope dancing beat the shaggy horse fetlocks stomp out in the mincing step of claps and clops they play up clip-clop-clap-cluppingly:

No trumps in the deck any more remains!

All of them are swept off by my virtual Ace!

O, boy! The answer was so simple! Why did he tortured himself and Peccy so, almost in vain?

Chris at his departure presented him the valueless clue and he used it, spontaneously and intuitively, before even guessing where it leads...

In the heat of a surge of emotions, just to show that he got it, the meaning of Chris’ mutter, who tried to warn him lying at the death's door himself... That's why instead of 'banzai!' hollered he the name of a button, one from 104 in the keyboard. Same-sized as the majority of them yet the most important for those who knows a thing or two about virtuality. Yes, the one marked by three letters—the uppermost to the left under the code number 27 (o, what a whale of meaning converges in that number for the knowing heart of a numerologist! And can you guess which one is coded by number 13, huh? 2Bsure! Who could ever doubt!)

Nobodya (not yet Inokenty at that moment but an innocent ignorant) not even knowing what he was doing, convoked “Escape!” and heard he was and the miracle came to pass!

Anyone is ready-made for doing wonders, actually.

Ain’t it a wonder to be born into this best of the worlds?

No less wonder is to survive in it for the duration of at least one Five-Year Plan. Or to live until you're big, and strong, and productive enough for pouring the mite of your own into the efforts for fulfillment of the current Five-Year Plan in 4 years?

Yes! Proclaim we without hesitation, this is a real marvel, wonder, miracle and stuff.

But!

Only the wondermaker is capable of doing not just a one-stand wonder but of reproducing it time after time.

How?

Ask a jailbird doing his regular time in prison for the miracle foreseen by one and the same article in the penal code.

Ask Kenty, the poor devil incarcerated in the impenetrable darkness of Peccy’s hollow innards. He knows the magic formula which enables him to make wonder—even though one and the same—without marring his innocent back of the head.

Right now he’ll repeat his personal miracle – lo and hearken!

"Escape!"

With a dry click, the locked valves parted. The upper one started its slow raise, opening, widening the gap thru which in pours the shining twinkle in the waves running to the shore from the immeasurable span of the blue sea that merges far far away, at the horizon, with the blue of the firmament adorned with the coquettish fluffy clouds, over there.

And here you can hear the idle surf and sexy moans of the gulls above the lolling waves.

Yes. He did manage.

He was apt enough.

It's finished.

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